If it’s not perfect, it’s not good enough. Am I the only one who thinks like this? It’s exhausting, isn’t it? More than that, it’s limiting. I don’t think anything I put out there will be perfect, will resonate, so I don’t put out anything. Then, since I didn’t do what I set out to, essentially doing nothing, I feel bad, and since I feel bad, I do nothing. It’s a cycle that has to break, so it might as well be here and now. Do the thing, even though I’m terrified. Admit that I have no idea what is going on. But isn’t that all of us? We do…

Today, I watched a video depicting a girl wiping down every airport and airplane surface with a clorox wipe. And as per usual, I ran to the comments, popcorn in hand. I was so curious what people had to say. One question stood out: “are you really actually OCD?” And for some reason, the resulting comments absolutely infuriated me. As someone who was officially diagnosed at 16, I’ve come to realize that most people really don’t understand what OCD is – or isn’t. They know what the initials stand for, but don’t seem to understand what it can actually entail. I remember being 16 years old, watching some news special…

“Are you still writing?” A seemingly simple question should have a simple answer: yes or no. But for someone who overthinks, there is no such thing as a simple question. And for someone who likes to explain, there is no simple answer. Am I still writing? Yes. Every day. But it’s stream of consciousness; not fully formed or fleshed out. Almost 4 months ago was both my last “normal day”, and also the day everything changed. At the time, of course, I didn’t realize this; things had changed on a dime and weren’t normal, but I didn’t yet know the extent of the problem. Almost 4 months later, and my…

Welcome! Welcome to my blog, welcome to my inner thoughts, welcome to what is hopefully the start of something I can grow and be proud of. You are officially invited to take a front row seat into my musings. Originally, abstract launch plans were formed in March 2019. Less than one month later, I was let go from my job. Blog plans were put on the back-burner, in order to devote myself to full-time job searching. You know, for “security.” On the one hand, it worked, and I was able to successfully gain new employment in less than 2 months (before my severance even ran out!). On the other hand,…